Life Schedule: January 2008

Tuesday 1st
New Years!
McDonald's 1 - 9
Pay Day: McDonald's (12)

Wednesday 2nd
FREE

Thursday 3rd
McDonald's 4 - 8

Friday 4th
McDonald's 4 - 9

Saturday 5th
McDonald's 7 - 7

Sunday 6th
FREE

Monday 7th
FREE

Tuesday 8th
McDonald's 1 - 7

Wednesday 9th
FREE

Thursday 10th
McDonald's 3 - 7

Friday 11th
FREE
First Date: Andrew Lee Miller

Saturday 12th
FREE

Sunday 13th
FREE

Monday 14th
FREE

Tuesday 15th
FREE
My Birthday!
Pay Day: McDonald's (13)

Wednesday 16th
McDonald's 4 - 8

Thursday 17th
McDonald's 1 - 7:15

Friday 18th
McDonald's 5 - 10

Saturday 19th
McDonald's 9 - 3

Sunday 20th
FREE

Monday 21st
FREE

Tuesday 22nd
McDonald's 1 - 8

Wednesday 23rd
FREE

Thursday 24th
McDonald's 3 - 7

Friday 25th
McDonald's 4 - 9

Saturday 26th
McDonald's 9 - 5

Sunday 27th
FREE

Monday 28th
FREE

Tuesday 29th
McDonald's 12 - 7
Pay Day: McDonald's (14)

Wednesday 30th
FREE

Thursday 31st
McDonald's 1 - 7

Life Schedule: December 2007

Saturday 1st
Ice Storm - no work

Sunday 2nd
FREE

Monday 3rd
McDonald's 4 - 9

Tuesday 4th
McDonald's 1 - 8
Pay Day: McDonald's (10)

Wednesday 5th
McDonald's 4 - 8

Thursday 6th
McDonald's 1 - 7

Friday 7th
FREE
Kirkwood: Classes End

Saturday 8th
McDonald's 11 - 5

Sunday 9th
FREE

Monday 10th
McDonald's 4 - 7

Tuesday 11th
McDonald's 2 - 7:30

Wednesday 12th
McDonald's 4 - 9
Kirkwood: Composition I Final

Thursday 13th
McDonald's 12 - 7

Friday 14th
McDonald's 4 - 9
Kirkwood: Introduction to Philosophy Final

Saturday 15th
McDonald's 11 - 7

Sunday 16th
FREE

Monday 17th
FREE
Kirkwood: Elementary Algebra Final

Tuesday 18th
McDonald's 1 - 7:45
Pay Day: McDonald's (11)

Wednesday 19th
McDonald's 4 - 9

Thursday 20th
McDonald's 1 - 7

Friday 21st
McDonald's 6 - 2
Leave for IL 5 pm

Saturday 22nd
Illinois

Sunday 23rd
Illinois

Monday 24th
Illinois

Tuesday 25th
Leave for IA 9 am
Grandma Hurt's House
Cousin's Movie: Alvin and the Chip monks

Wednesday 26th
FREE

Thursday 27th
McDonald's 12 - 8

Friday 28th
FREE

Saturday 29th
Sick - No Work

Sunday 30th
FREE

Monday 31st
McDonald's 4 - 9
Party W/Candy

EEEEEKKK

I am so stressed out today. I missed a whole lot of school before Thanksgiving, so I was very stressed out about coming to school. The drive here helped a little, but as soon as I parked in the Kirkwood parking lot I felt like turning back around. I no longer have my College 101 class, so I have 2 hours between classes on Mondays and 3 hours on Wednesdays. I went to my first class, Composition I, and decided that I am pretty damn far behind. I need to do some more research, then I have to add the information, and then on Wednesday I have to come in to the workshop so that my teacher can help me add in the sources and make the works cited for the new sources. The good thing is that we have one more class after that and all thats due is our final paper and our last type talk. Then the next monday, 12/12, we have our final exam and the class is done! Now I have to sit in my car for 2 hours and wait for the next class where I've missed an entire reading assignment and a quiz. Luckily, that class will be done too, and dear god I can't wait! I hate it - its Philosophy. I spend the majority of my life wondering what the fuck I'm doing and what's the point of it all anyway. I'm depressed easily, so the class making me think that way more often makes me more depressed. I hate it. I'm gonna ask to take the quiz either before or after the class really quick, and I'm going to B.S. my way through the fucker. Then I'll have to B.S. my way through the final exam and hope that I don't flunk. I have to do the reading assignment, as well.
Then I have my math class tomorrow, which I have to do the homework for tonight. If I calm down I can get it done, but my stress levels are so incredibly high that I can't stand it. I have to enter in my information from my surveys as well, which should be a treat. Then for my 2nd hour class (college 101) I have to set up an appointment with my teacher. Then I have to write out my "who am i now" paper and assemble everything ive done into a portfolio. She's going to help me destress, though, cuz i sent her an email.... Hopefully she inspires me like usual because I need it right now.
I need a cigarette really really bad right now. I think I've decided to buy a pack when I get home. I'm also gonna get a sub. I need to get rid of the stress so I can finish out the term. THEN I can quit. Robin will be disappointed because I really really wanted to quit and she was going to be my support. I just can't quit cold turkey, though. It's just too difficult. I should probably do something for homework. i'll write a todo list and look up stuff about when the new term starts. then i'll start in on my composition shit. wish me luck, because I need it more than i ever have right now.

Life Schedule: November 2007

Thursday 1st
McDonald's 12 - 9

Friday 2nd
McDonald's 4 - 9

Saturday 3rd
McDonald's 7 - 3

Sunday 4th
FREE

Monday 5th
FREE

Tuesday 6th
McDonald's 1 - 9
PAY DAY: McDonald's (8th)

Wednesday 7th
McDonald's 4 - 9

Thursday 8th
McDonald's 1 - 7

Friday 9th
McDonald's 4 - 9

Saturday 10th
McDonald's 12 - 8

Sunday 11th
FREE

Monday 12th
FREE

Tuesday 13th
McDonald's 1 - 9

Wednesday 14th
McDonald's 4 - 9

Thursday 15th
McDonald's 12 - 8

Friday 16th
McDonald's 4 - 9

Saturday 17th
McDonald's 11 - 9

Sunday 18th
FREE

Monday 19th
FREE

Tuesday 20th
McDonald's 1 - 9
PAY DAY: McDonald's (9)

Wednesday 21st
McDonald's 12 - 9

Thursday 22nd
McDonald's 8 - 1

Friday 23rd
McDonald's 2 - 10

Saturday 24th
McDonald's 11 - 9

Sunday 25th
FREE

Monday 26th
McDonald's 4 - 8

Tuesday 27th
FREE

Wednesday 28th
McDonald's 4 - 9

Thursday 29th
McDonald's 1 - 7

Friday 30th
FREE

Life Schedule: October 2007

Monday 1st
FREE

Tuesday 2nd
McDonald's 1 - 9

Wednesday 3rd
McDonald's 4 - 9

Thursday 4th
McDonald's 1:45 - 7

Friday 5th
McDonald's 4 - 9
Pay Day: Ox Yoke (23rd)

Saturday 6th
McDonald's 12:45 - 8:30

Sunday 7th
Ox Yoke 2 - CL (Coffee)

Monday 8th
McDonald's 4 - 9

Tuesday 9th
McDonald's 1 - 9 (p)
Pay Day: McDonald's (6th)

Wednesday 10th
McDonald's 4 - 9 (p)

Thursday 11th
McDonald's 12 - 8 (p)

Friday 12th
FREE (p)

Saturday 13th
McDonald's 6:45 - 3 (p)

Sunday 14th
Quit Ox Yoke (p)

Monday 15th
McDonald's 4 - 8

Tuesday 16th
McDonald's 2 - 8

Wednesday 17th
McDonald's 4 - 9

Thursday 18th
McDonald's 12 - 9

Friday 19th
McDonald's 4 - 9
Pay Day: Ox Yoke (24th)

Saturday 20th
Halloween Party
McDonald's 7 - 3

Sunday 21st
FREE

Monday 22nd
McDonald's 4 - 9

Tuesday 23rd
McDonald's 1 - 8
Pay Day: McDonald's (7th)

Wednesday 24th
FREE

Thursday 25th
McDonald's 12 - 7

Friday 26th
McDonald's 4 - 9

Saturday 27th
McDonald's 7 - 3

Sunday 28th
FREE

Monday 29th
FREE

Tuesday 30th
McDonald's 1 - 9

Wednesday 31st
McDonald's 4 - 9

Life Schedule: September 2007

Saturday 1st
McDonald's 7 - 3

Sunday 2nd
Ox Yoke 2 - CL (Coffee)

Monday 3rd
McDonald's 5 - 9

Tuesday 4th
McDonald's 3 - 7

Wednesday 5th
McDonald's 4:30 - 9

Thursday 6th
FREE

Friday 7th
McDonald's 7 - 10, 5 - 9
Pay Day: Ox Yoke (21st)

Saturday 8th
McDonald's 8 - 3

Sunday 9th
Ox Yoke 2 - CL (Coffee)

Monday 10th
FREE

Tuesday 11th
McDonald's 4 - 9 (p)
Pay Day: McDonald's (4th)

Wednesday 12th
McDonald's 4 - 7 (p)

Thursday 13th
McDonald's 12 - 8 (p)

Friday 14th
McDonald's 7 - 10, 5 - 9 (p)

Saturday 15th
McDonald's 8 - 4 (p)

Sunday 16th
Ox Yoke 2 - CL (Coffee)

Monday 17th
McDonald's 4 - 9

Tuesday 18th
McDonald's 2 - 8

Wednesday 19th
FREE

Thursday 20th
McDonald's 12 - 8

Friday 21st
McDonald's 7 - 10, 5 - 9
Pay Day: Ox Yoke (22nd)

Saturday 22nd
McDonald's 8 - 4

Sunday 23rd
Ox Yoke 2 - CL (Coffee)
(!) 2nd time: Brian Vincent

Monday 24th
McDonald's 4 - 9

Tuesday 25th
McDonald's 2 - 9
Pay Day: McDonald's 2 - 9

Wednesday 26th
FREE

Thursday 27th
McDonald's 12 - 8

Friday 28th
McDonald's 7 - 10, 4 - 9

Saturday 29th
McDonald's 7 - 3

Sunday 30th
Ox Yoke 2 - CL (Coffee)

And Yet Again

No, Brian was not angry at me. He is now. Because I was upset since every time I make plans to hang out with him he finds something else to do. I find time for him and come to Belle Plaine because I really want to see him and he always has some other thing he'd rather do... and I know that I always tell him far ahead of time that I plan to hang with him. Then the other night he didnt call me back when i left him texts and a voicemail, so I thought he was ignoring me or putting me on or just dropping me flat. So when Amanda got him to squeeze in a "whole five minutes" I was still a little upset with him... but then this known whore came up to his apt and wanted to talk to him in his room. Amanda said she thinks she was trying to get him to make us leave... I just generally don't like the idea of him hanging around a whore. I know its not my business but I'm sorry if I consider myself to be higher quality...I know I might not be as skinny but im clean... I don't just have sex with everything that has a penis. So I was pissed that his plans that caused me to not hang out with him involved her and MOSTLY because he was basically ignoring me. I sent him a text saying that if he didnt care about me he should just say so because I was already hurting enough...he didnt respond so I sent him one saying that I guessed he didnt care and that I hoped he'd had fun screwing the whore chick... So now instead of being comforting and saying "there, there, you do matter and yes i care about you" hes saying "youre obsessive, i dont want to talk to you again." which pisses me off, but at the same time i definitely dont want to lose him. It's totally not even like that. I definitely dont like the idea of him having sex with other girls, but mostly i just dont want to be phased out. I want him to pay attention to me and respond to me and actually want to hang out with me. Because this is slowly turning into another Craig thing. He said in the beginning that I was too cute to ignore....which while incredibly sweet (and making me blush) was apparently not entirely true. I'm so torn between moving on, working it out, and giving up on love all together that all I really want is to lay in bed and curl up in a ball for a month or two.

Disaster Again

I think Brian is mad at me. We had sex last night and then this girl who everyone says is a whore called and wanted to come up and have sex with Brian's friend. Brian asked if she was gonna have sex with both of them and if not she wasn't coming up. It made me upset because I really like him a lot...and he just had sex with me - so why does he need to have sex with her, too? He was really fuckin wasted, though, so who's to say that he wasn't still. Although, who's to say he even wants me anymore. He got in my pants...maybe I was wrong and that was all he wanted. I wrote him a message on myspace and he read it but didn't respond. I called his cell phone and it rang twice, which means he sent it to voicemail purposely. I left him a message and he still hasn't called me back. I think maybe it's over between us. I don't want it to be, but if he wants it to be, I can't prevent it ending.

Amanda said she found me someone better...but I don't think I'm interested. I still like Brian too much... and if this doesn't work out, it further proves that I should take a break from males... too much pain in a smallish amount of time.

Journal Blog #1: Crazy, Crazy Me

For a week now I've been laying in bed from 8pm to 10pm or so through 2am, just rolling around trying to get some shut eye. Then every morning I try to wake myself up at 6am. I can't do it. Tomorrow should help me out with that, however.
Yesterday and today are pretty much blending together. Yesterday I was incredibly successful in my weight loss. I have now lost a total of 20 lbs! I woke up and did an amazing job with my calorie intake and with getting all of my nutrients. Then at 2pm I had to have Britney Lane (my best friend), pick me up to drive me to Ox Yoke to work from 2pm to close (9:30ish). I have told them multiple times before that I don't have a ride during the week, but they haven't been listening. It doesn't matter anymore, though, because after this month I wont be working there except on Sundays.
So I made about 50 bucks, and I blew it all. I went to McDonald's and got a McChicken and a large Hazelnut Iced Coffee, because I knew I'd be well under my calories after walking around so fast and so much during work (waitressing is a great way to lose weight). Then I lifted weights for 10 minutes. After doing some random online stuff, Mom and I went to Wal-Mart (at 11:30pm) so that we could buy the seventh Harry Potter book (at 12:01am). I bought some underwear, a notebook, tampons, and some doggy treats and made it back to the line my mom was waiting in just in time for it to start moving. A lady behind me, really pretty blonde lady, had me go pick up a pack of batteries....that's one of those "golden moments" they talk about in all of those McDonald's Interactive Videos...you'd have to work there to understand.
Anyway, so now at 9am we're going grocery shopping and then to look for a car for me. I hope we find one, because I need it to get to school and I need to start practicing A.S.A.P. Then from 5 - 9pm I work at McDoogles.
Now I'm really tired, so I think it may be a good idea to get offline.

Guten Nacht, mein lieber Freund!

Life Schedule: August 2007

Wednesday 1st
McDonald's 5 - 10
Went with Brian Vincent to Belle Plaine

Thursday 2nd
Belle Plaine w/Amanda Bair and Brian Vincent
(!) 1st time: Brian Vincent

Friday 3rd
McDonald's 5 - 10
Drove home from Belle Plaine

Saturday 4th
McDonald's 9 - 4

Sunday 5th
Ox Yoke 2 - CL (Coffee)

Monday 6th
McDonald's 4-7
Went to Belle Plaine
Got sick

Tuesday 7th
Belle Plaine

Wedneday 8th
Home from Belle Plaine
McDonald's 5 - 10

Thursday 9th
McDonald's 4:30 - 10

Friday 10th
McDonald's 5 - 10
Pay Day: Ox Yoke (19th)

Saturday 11th
McDonald's 9 - 5

Sunday 12th
Ox Yoke 2 - CL Coffee

Monday 13th
McDonald's 5 - 10
Belle Plaine at Amanda's

Tuesday 14th
McDonald's 5 - 10 (p)
Pay Day: McDonald's (2nd)
Belle Plaine at Amanda's

Wednesday 15th
Belle Plaine at Amanda's (p)
School Shopping

Thursday 16th
Came home from Belle Plaine (p)
McDonald's 4:30 - 10

Friday 17th
McDonald's 5 - 10 (p)

Saturday 18th
McDonald's 9 - 5 (p)

Sunday 19th
Ox Yoke 2 - CL (Coffee)

Monday 20th
McDonald's 4:30 - 10

Tuesday 21st
McDonald's 5 - 10
Kirkwood: Fall Classes Begin

Wednesday 22nd
FREE

Thursday 23rd
FREE

Friday 24th
McDonald's 4:30 - 10
Pay Day: Ox Yoke (20th)

Saturday 25th
McDonald's 8 - 4

Sunday 26th
Ox Yoke 2 - CL (Coffee)

Monday 27th
McDonald's 4:30 - 10

Tuesday 28th
McDonald's 5 - 10
Pay Check: McDonald's (3rd)

Wednesday 29th
McDonald's 4:30 - 10

Thursday 30th
FREE

Friday 31st
McDonald's 7 - 10, 4 - 9

Life Schedule: July 2007

Sunday 1st
Ox Yoke 2 - CL (Front)

Monday 2nd
FREE

Tuesday 3rd
FREE

Wednesday 4th
Fireworks 10pm
Independance Day

Thursday 5th
FREE

Friday 6th
Pick up McDonald's Application 4:30pm

Saturday 7th
FREE

Sunday 8th
Ox Yoke 2 - CL (Coffee)

Monday 9th
FREE

Tuesday 10th
Kirkwood Orientation 1 - 4pm

Wednesday 11th
FREE

Thursday 12th
FREE

Friday 13th
FREE
Unlucky Day
Pay Day: Ox Yoke (17th)

Saturday 14th
McDonald's Interview 10am
Harry Potter Movie V 4pm

Sunday 15th
Ox Yoke 10 - CL (Coffee)

Monday 16th
McDonald's Orientation 2 - 3pm
Ox Yoke 5 - CL (Coffee)

Tuesday 17th
FREE (p)

Wednesday 18th
McDonald's 4:30 - 9 (p)

Thursday 19th
McDonald's 4:30 - 7 (p)

Friday 20th
Ox Yoke 2 - CL (Coffee) (p)

Saturday 21st
McDonald's 5 - 9 (p)
Harry Potter Book VII 12am
Car Shopping 9am

Sunday 22nd
Ox Yoke 2 - CL (Coffee) (p)

Monday 23rd
FREE

Tuesday 24th
Ox Yoke 5 - CL (Front)

Wednesday 25th
McDonald's 4:30 - 9
Met Brian Vincent

Thursday 26th
Adventureland (Amanda Bair)
Amanda Bair's birthday

Friday 27th
Party (Amanda Bair)
Pay Day: Ox Yoke (18th)
1st Kiss w/Brian Vincent

Saturday 28th
2B: Brian Vincent
Car came home

Sunday 29th
Ox Yoke 2 - CL (Coffee)

Monday 30th
McDonald's 5 - 10
Brian Vincent came to my house

Tuesday 31st
Ox Yoke 5 - CL (Front)
Pay Day: McDonald's (1st)

Class Schedule: Kirwood - Fall 2007

Monday
8:00am - 9:50am: Composition I
10:00am - 11:50am: College 101
12:00pm - 12:50pm: Introduction to Philosophy

Tuesday
8:00am - 9:50am: Elementary Algebra

Wednesday
8:00am - 8:50am: Composition I
10:00am - 10:50am: College 101
12:00pm - 12:50pm: Introduction to Philosophy

Thursday
8:00am - 8:50am: Elementary Algebra

Friday
12:00pm - 12:50pm: Introduction to Philosophy

It's My Life

I'm sure, at some later date, I will choose to go into much greater detail about some many parts and pieces of my life, but this will only be a vague overview in order to introduce you to me. To quote a George Bush impersonator, "I'd like to begin at the beginning."
I was born in Iowa City on January 15, 1989. I lived in an apartment there until I was four. I have many crazy childhood memories, but those we will save for a later date. I moved to Williamsburg, Iowa and began school with Kindergarten (as oppose to preschool for lack of funds). When I was younger I was quite the goof and an extraordinary trouble-maker. As I grew up the only rules I didn't follow was completion of homework and lack of studying. Now I find myself to be very responsible.
In highschool, I kept myself very busy. I was in Band (Marching, Concert and Pep) and Choir (Treble and Concert). I was a cheerleader as well as in speech and drama club, performing in many musicals. I had three solos in choir. In 8th grade, I was also fortunate enough to recieve the lead role of Orphan Annie in our junior high production of Annie Jr. (adapted for junior high). My senior year I was also part of our schools most productive and successful yearbook team. We sold to over half of the student body and had record advertisement sells/donations. We received media attention for this and put on a performance for the school for raising the money for us, including a male teacher in a dress and a female teacher who ate bugs as part of her audition for a reality show.
I graduated in May of 2007. I will be attending Kirkwood Community College for 2 years and then plan to transfer somewhere else, likely the University of Iowa. I plan to major in music. I play the flute and sing soprano, but I'd like to teach choir, highschool or college level, or become a famous vocalist.
My first job was at Subway in the Tanger Outlet Center. I worked there from June 2005 to July 2006. I started working at Ox Yolk Interstate (a German family style restaurant) in December of 2006, and still work there to this day. I started working at McDonald's only this month. Today was my second day on the job.
There were, in my first 18 years, some memorable happenings. The first being the memory of Anthony Cameron Moore. I started dating him in my freshman year. We were very close, and only with the interference of his mother did we split up for good. The next year, Andy died. It was very tragic, but just when I thought life couldn't get worse, it did.
In August of 2006 I started seeing a man by the name of Craig Hall. The first night I went to his house was only to drink some alcohol that he'd bought me (since he was 25, and able to buy it - I was 17). When I was drunk, he took advantage of me, and took my virginity. I wanted to stay with him because I had a strong attraction to him and believed that I should stay with him since he took my virginity. He refused to date me and I left his house crying every night because he either touched another girl or played his computer gain rather than hanging out with me. Eventually an evil woman came along (Lisa Stoneking) and acted like a mentally ill person doing many things that would make most people get a restraining order against her. She won him from me. He broke my heart and took what he should never have had a chance at. That is far worse than a death, where you know your loved one is safe in heaven, don't you think?
That is the worst of my life so far, but I will be sure to update you on good and bad happenings.