Disaster Again

I think Brian is mad at me. We had sex last night and then this girl who everyone says is a whore called and wanted to come up and have sex with Brian's friend. Brian asked if she was gonna have sex with both of them and if not she wasn't coming up. It made me upset because I really like him a lot...and he just had sex with me - so why does he need to have sex with her, too? He was really fuckin wasted, though, so who's to say that he wasn't still. Although, who's to say he even wants me anymore. He got in my pants...maybe I was wrong and that was all he wanted. I wrote him a message on myspace and he read it but didn't respond. I called his cell phone and it rang twice, which means he sent it to voicemail purposely. I left him a message and he still hasn't called me back. I think maybe it's over between us. I don't want it to be, but if he wants it to be, I can't prevent it ending.

Amanda said she found me someone better...but I don't think I'm interested. I still like Brian too much... and if this doesn't work out, it further proves that I should take a break from males... too much pain in a smallish amount of time.